It’s has really been a long time since I posted something more serious. And I guess, it’s time for me to be back.
I have this feeling which is starting to kill me little by little in the inside. The thirst of hearing him say, “baby, you are beautiful” is getting high. Really.
I don’t need it for boast purposes but I haven’t had hear it from him for almost 2 years. The last time I heard him saying it was on November 2010. isn’t that too long? :( My confidence is getting low.
There’s a lot of fish in the sea and I’m afraid of something that is really possible to happen. I wouldn’t take this issue at this point if this is less important to me.
I always hear him say, “she’s beautiful.” But, sadly, it’s not me whom he meant. I am envious now. I feel so ugly. Uglier than an ugly duckling. 3
Appreciate yourself and take the time to deeply love yourself. We all have amazing talents and gifts that no one else has.
Finally met Elizabeth of Tumblr. Oh my gaad! she’s very tall and pretty. Even though the 8-minute meet-up is way too short, it’s all worth it. <3
Thank you for taking time with me Elisha!
Each new day is like an ocean wave, returning to the shore, you have no idea what it will bring, just as you have no idea what surprises the surf will lay at your feet.On calm days, ordinary shells are left at the water’s edge, but after stormy weather, all kinds of treasures are churned up from the deep. Rare finds for those with the patience to uncover them. The phases of life itself are as unpredictable as the moods of the ocean; sometimes smooth, sometimes turbulent. But beyond this mystery lies one certainty. While you can never know what gifts life will bring, you can trust that every sunrise offers possibilities. Every day holds beautiful moments and new dreams, waiting for you to come and find them.
Wherever we are, whatever we do, I always seem to have the time of my life with all of you. You guys are all amazing. I love you so much! thank you for the 6 years of friendship. <3
Hi guys! so here, another comeback post from me. I know this aint perfect but I just thought of posting this out for public. comments are highly appreciated, whether it’s a compliment or any.
sorry for the extra noise, I only used laptop while recording this. geee :)
Lying alone, crying to sleep, drowning myself with too much thoughts. Here I am again, over thinking. Oh Lord! I really have so much pain in my heart now. I don’t know where to start and how to handle these things. The pain is killing me, little by little. Everything is changing, and that’s what breaks my heart the most. I know God you are always with me, in my heart and in my system, but for now, I badly need someone who’ll listen to me as I scream out these emotions of mine. I just couldn’t bottle these things inside. The burden I feel within is too heavy to carry. Yes, I tend to smile to show people that everything’s going on it’s way, the way it should be but I just can’t fake it all along. I literally don’t understand everything that’s happening now. Either, if this is for the better, or for something worse.
Lord God, I’m sorry if I don’t trust my strength in facing these trials anymore. These circumstances are making me feel useless.
You know Lord that it will always be to you whom I offer my life. Please help me, guide me in overcoming these obstacles. Without you is very meaningless. You are my savior and forever will be. I love you papa God.
Amen.
